sick of it

I'm sick of it all. All of it. I keep finding ways to make more people mad and make more enemies all the time. I don't seek to do this, I'm just too damn dumb to keep from it. Lots of folks are mad at me around here. I'm thinking of moving away. It's been home for years and there are people here I really care about but it's just not worth it anymore. My kids are all out on their own and doing ok so they don't need me much. my grandson is fun but I hardly see him. I think my best friends are mad at me. They don't answer when I call or return my calls. Don't know what's going on there. I hope they're just busy and not upset with me. That would be the end. I think a change of scenery is what I need. New place, new people, new work, new everything.